You start with a smile,
Grows with a kiss And ends with a tear!
And since the beginning of my time,
I have gazed @ you in awe…
Hating myself for the sweet feeling of pain you give me.
You know no boundaries,
And all I am to you is some creation…
That is a carbon copy of the other little boxes you have constructed!
And like a fool,
I tell myself that I am done with you…
Only to welcome you with open arms!
So forgiving I am…
And you just rain on me,
Giving me pain…
Mocking n’ abusing me!
Forcing me chase you like an addict,
That is seeking that fix.
Encased in my childlike womb,
I lay in wait…
All vulnerable n’ stupid!
Breathing in your false air,
Experiencing the wonder of your deceit.
If only I could gaze upon…
And clue myself in.
The pain of you,
Has reduced me to a subhuman state…
Yet when the smoke clears,
My heart smiles because I know that you were well worth the pain.
So I tell myself one more day,
And maybe I will get an hour, week or year…
Or a lifetime!
Each time I get closer to you,
You make it sweeter than the time before…
Putting me in blissful state,
Only to have frown hit my face;
As I remember your golden rule:
THAT LOVE HURTS SO GOOD!